Speak from the Heart

right, so about 2 weeks ago, i went on holiday. we started going across the road to this restaurant twice a day, then one of the waiters there kissed me when he said goodbye, and did it every time i came in there after that, and we started to get close, even though he could hardly speak my language. then one day, the woman there came and said to me that he'd left, and i was devastated, and cried for the whole of that day, but i tried to hide it, as my mum and dad thought it was just a silly thing. then that night, we went over to the restaurant, and he turned up, we went off together, and did stuff, then the same happened the next day, and he said he'd add me on facebook. and he was leaving that day, but at least i got a proper goodbye i thought, so we said goodbye, and stuff. but during all of this, i got good friends with another waiter there, and we became friends on facebook. and my mum thought he also liked liked me., but i refused to believe it, although, secretly sinside, i wanted him too, coz i had a little crush on him. when i got home on monday, i thought that it was the end of everything, as he was never actually going to add me. but earlier today, i got a friend request from him. and he sent me a messgae asking how i was, i said i was good and all that. then i looked on his facebook, and it was covered with this girl, and all his statuses were about her, and he had loads of comments from her, so i asked him about it, and he said he loves her, and that he's sorry. and obviously, i was quite upset, but deep down i knew it wouldn't have worked even if that didn't happen. but then the other guy started talking to me, and said it's all going to be okay and everything, and was calling me baby and everything. i just don't know what to do.

Wed, 13 Jul 2011 00:10:10 -0400

Well, you shouldn’t go for the guy that is already spoken for, he’s already proved himself to be capable of cheating, you will end up hurt in the end. I would find out more about the one that talks to you now, at least he doesn’t seem like a cheater or a player based on what you’ve said. Try and see where that path leads!

I don't have anything to ask about yet..but I will, one day :3 follows

Wed, 13 Jul 2011 00:05:07 -0400

Thank you! We appreciate it!

Well, Thomas and Ruby, it's nice to meet you (:

Mon, 11 Jul 2011 22:31:37 -0400

yes, its nice too meet you too(:

HI, Luv ya blog, PROMO4PROMO? Follow me? THanks :)

Sun, 10 Jul 2011 22:49:37 -0400

Sorry we can’t do promos for this blog. But Ill follow on my main blog. (:

hello (: i think that this blog is a great idea, i hope you help alot of people (: i know i'll proably be asking you for advie/help sometime... I'm Dakota by the way, whats your names?

Sun, 10 Jul 2011 22:43:42 -0400

Thomas and Ruby (:

My dad calls me fat. I smile and agree with him and tell him Ill run every morning. Inside Im secretly hurt and my self esteem is lowered more than it already is...

Sat, 09 Jul 2011 02:02:32 -0400

Im sorry to hear that…but what you should do is not listen to him. Everyone is beautiful. Even though your self-esteem is lowered more than it already is, you should do positive things that bring out the good things in you. You could write on a sticky pad, “Im beautiful and no one can tell me Im not!” and then stick it to your mirror. Thats just a suggestion. :)

hey! I'm following you to see how you will manage this great idea that you had.

Here is my thing.

I have some friends. Like any other girl.
My best friend is a boy and I love him. We go out sometimes, once on a month or more. He has a girlfriend and she doesn't know anything about our "dates". His girlfriend is my friend too. He knows that I like him and I want to have something with him.

Well, he had tried to kiss me like 5 or 6 times and I run away because I can't destroy my life because of a guy who is going out of the country. If I trid to explain all the details that are beneath this story I would write a soap opera.

One thing that I noticed is that when I refuse his kiss or dating with him, we have an argument and we don't talk for days. Then, he broke with his girlfriend (who doesn't know about all this story) and she call me to talk with him and solve all their problems. Well, I call him, we talk about why he still is with her and he comes back to her.

But that is really fuck me. Because I love him and he apparently does love me too. If their relationship falls apart, I will have serious consequences at school. If I kiss him I know that I won't stop until it ends badly and hurts me.

So what can I do? Follow the reasonable or the love?

Sat, 09 Jul 2011 01:52:00 -0400

I think you should always chase what your heart desires, and it’s kind of demeaning to guys in general but a lot of guys stick with the girl they are with while talking to someone else because they are afraid of losing both women. He may be unsure about your feelings towards him, because of the rejection to his advances. You love him obviously, and it seems that he loves you, he just needs a sign, otherwise he will stick with the other girl. Just let it go on just a little bit, give him a sign that you are interested in taking things further. BUT. Do not do anything serious until you have him completely, and unconditionally. Do not be his second choice, or his on the side. Don’t kiss him until he’s left, and completely shown that he wants to be with You and only You.

I was told that I was ugly and damn, did that lower my self-esteem. I was a pushover only because I wanted to fit in and be liked by everyone. I was pathetic. I was weak. I never stood up for myself. I was a follower. I was a loser.

Sat, 09 Jul 2011 01:51:54 -0400

Well, you’re stating that you “were” all of that so that’s all in the past now. I hope you’re doing fine and that you’re nothing like that anymore. We eventually all grow up and changed up our personalities a bit, so it is normal. Hopefully, you’re a confident beautiful you.<3

hey! I'm following your tumblr :)

I'll appreciate if you follow mine too...

Your tumblr is a great idea, really =}

xoxo

Sat, 09 Jul 2011 01:43:23 -0400

Aww thank you very much! I hope this blog is successful in time and Ill follow back on my main blog. :)

My mom has abused me since I was four, My earliest memories are of her screaming at me and throwing me at a wall because I couldn't read the word "cat." But, if I tell anyone, my mom will lose her job as a teacher and my whole family will be shattered. What should I do?

Sat, 09 Jul 2011 01:39:23 -0400

I think you should stand up for yourself. No one deserves to abused by their own parent. Even though your mother will lose her job and your whole family will be shattered, I think what matters most is how YOU feel. Do what you think is right for YOU. Your mother has no right going on with her life while abusing you. What kind of mother is that? And if your family loves you, then they should be there to support you.